Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Baby Zero




The title was for a previous thought, but I changed my mind..
I still liked the title tho, so I left it so I'd remember it for something else.
Here's a random piece I wrote for a short story I'm working on.

EXCERPT FROM UNTITLED STORY:
"Her eyes were deep, dark black. They glittered and opened and closed rapidly, like a raven's.
I tried, but was never able to see the whites of her eyes. It must have been the intrinsic nature of her eyelids,
shaped as they were by whatever esoteric lineage she claimed, that obscured the whites from view at all angles.
Two things above all unnerved me about her eyes. Firstly, though they were so black and
boundless, they didn't seem empty like you would think. They were alive with movement, as though there were
tiny clockwork gyros and gears moving miniscule lights around inside. Perhaps flourescent sperm were
swimming around in there, apparently driven mad, trapped in those spheres of stygian syrup, crying out with pinpoints of
frantic, spasmodic insanity. Choked, bleating, sickly pale lights without voice.. glittering in a disgusting, wet maelstrom of
slithering infinitesmal, barbed worms. Thorny, spiny, fishbones, sculpted of blanched moonlight, peeking and then dipping beneath
the oily, black slick to swim just beneath the surface of her madness. As nausea-inducing as this imagery appeared to me, so visceral and high resolution as to almost gag me, I found it increasingly more erotic... quite unnaturally and irrationally so.
Then again, maybe the tiny lights were flashing in carefully engineered patterns and levels of intensity to disarm me, brainwash me?

Was it the drugs? It felt mostly real.

The second unsettling thing was that I could see my face
reflected in her eyes, and In those black depths, I now appeared hollow and empty. Eyes sunken, skin grey."

Thursday, April 10, 2008

I CAN'T STOP WATCHING TRAILER PARK BOYS...




This show is so goddamned comforting.
Bubbles and Lahey are my faves. Lahey is the most hilarious tho.
I had heard the first three seasons were good but the rest sucked.
BULLSHIT!! I think season 5 is as funny or funnier than any of the other seasons.
I hated J-rock at first, but he comes alive in season 5... didn't mean to rhyme that.
I'm now burning seasons 6 and 7. Tonight will be good.
"2 THINGS LAHEY, PUT ON SOME PANTS, THEN FUCK OFF!"

"YOU GOT ANY BETTER IDEAS RANDY?!? NO? THEN PUT ON A SHIRT AND SHUT UP!"

Ok, the DVD-R just turned into a coaster... my last DVD-R. SWEET!
well, at least a brand new office episode is on tonight.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

...




This is a strange time.
2 things I'm glad for:
1: my taxes are fucking DONE.

2: I'm experiencing a creativity spurt, which is like
life itself to me. The most miserable and close to suicide I've ever
been was during times when I couldn't create something.
I have to be somewhat miserable in order to be inspired.
So I make something. Something probably laughable or plain hideous by
everyone else's standards. No matter. Just getting it out
and into tangibly visible form... it's almost like any other
bodily function. You can't just suppress it without consequence.
It's basically an involuntary ecaculation of condensed thought vapor.
Then,... again, much like bodily functions, you feel better.
The problem is, miserable doesn't automatically and always = inspiration.
When you are both miserable AND uninspired.. those are tough times.

"Thought vomit" has a nice ring to it.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Pets are the first wave...



They live among us, sleep next to us, map our homes, watch everything we do.
Assessing behavior, testing tolerances and weaknesses.
Goddamn near every home has a pet or 4.
I love the shit out of mine, but I swear, their little Nikon eyes are
cataloguing every stupid thing I do. Probably streaming it across the universe
to some laughing alien culture as "alien reality tv"
Can you think of a better way to gain complete control of the human race slowly, without messy initial warfare?
They would know every detail of our lives. They wouldn't all be alien agenst mind you, just some. A million or so, in choice households and demographics, forever observing and cataloging. Perhaps some sort of Doppelganger hybrid alien that can take on common pet forms.

Sunday, March 16, 2008

The way of things...




It occurs to me that on the whole, the new cancer will be nanotechnology.
At first, like metal, like plastic, like gold, like oil, like uranium, it will be the answer to every problem.
Nanomeds, NanoStims, NanoTranqs, NanoGens, NanoHair, NanoTeeth, NanoFlesh, NanoMetabolisms, NanoAcid NanoDemo, NanoVirus, NanoPet, NanoBlood...
In a minimum of 20 years, every aspect of the modern world will be forever altered by the all-encompassing and irrevocable force of Nanotechnology.
Every function of modern life will be affected.
Military, Societal, Medical, Academic, Scientific, Law Enforcement, Luxury, Tourism, Recreational drug use, Sports Enhancement, Construction, Production, Transport, Aerospace Engineering, Genetic Engineering, Civil Engineering.
As certain elements become more scarce and sought after, structure, rather than
substance is likely to become more important.

The future is small, invisible to the naked eye, and smart with a vast memory and far reaching feelers. Ever reaching, adapting, with a small stomach, voracious hunger and a long life.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

BACON-WRAPPED SLOTH GIBLETS...

Lately I've been questioning whether I'm a real person or not.
Everything seems sort of misty and half-formed, driving feels like a video game.
My anger has been severely disproportionate and quick to flare lately.
If someone just goes around me on the highway, I take it personally and immediately
want to bash their face in, regardless of who they are.
I think perhaps I will one day die at the hands of some idiot in a car I've yelled at or
flipped off.
Not sure what's causing it, recent indulgent habits? brain chemistry slowly eroding and
breaking down, thrown off balance.
I'm not depressed or anything, but it just seems like the world is coming right up to the edge of the end.
Maybe I'm projecting, then again there are, at present, any number of ways that the end could be triggered.
I for one, welcome it. We live in interesting times, life is cheap, gas is expensive, violence persists and at greater
frequency than ever before.
Every institution is slowly breaking down, losing efficiency.

At least the end won't be boring. We're lucky to live in the omega of humanity.
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